So, I’ve been moping around feeling sorry for myself over the last few weeks. Work has been busy and stressing me out. My personal life is a mess. I’ve been bummed out because of my four-month weight loss plateau. Basically, I’ve been feeling pretty sorry for myself.
This week, a good friend of mine sat me down and had a talk with me. She basically told me to snap out of it and appreciate all of the good things that have been happening to me. She gave me a little pep talk and reminded of all the progress I have made. She is right. I have been acting foolishly. For the last few days, I have been actively trying to be more cheerful and not dwell on the negative.
But then it happened…
I took my work computer home last night. There was a chance we may get freezing rain last night, and I wanted to be ready to work from home. That, however, was not the problem.
Because I was reading on the metro and then the bus, I did not really pay as close attention to my stuff that I normally do. As a result, I left my secondary bag, the one with my lunch, my make-up, an umbrella, my iPhone charger, (the new one I just bought), and my keys on the bus.
Of everything in that bag, the only things I am really upset about are the iPhone charger and the keys. My apartment building has been great. They gave me a replacement key until I can get my spare from my sister. I have a spare car key, but it’s not an electronic one. I will have to get that replaced. I can buy a new iPhone charger, but I’m just mad that I have to do that…again.
I was upset last night and today at work. But something happened on the way home from work. I stopped caring.
Walking through DC, on the metro, and bus home, I had the most amazing feeling of weightlessness. It was freeing. I did not have to cart half of my life around with me.
I am moving at the end of the month to a new apartment in the same building. The manager told me that as long as I can return one set of keys, they won’t charge me a fee for the ones I do not have. Done. Someone told me that I can get my key replaced at home depot for $50.00. Done. And the rest? An inconvenience, but replaceable.
What I found surprising is that by letting go of the belongings that I lost, I also stopped caring about all of the other stuff that has been bothering me all month.
Weight isn’t just the physical girth we carry around on our bodies, it’s also all of the emotional baggage we carry around. The weight of those burdens has had me focused on all of the wrong things. Maybe losing that bag was a blessing in disguise.