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Stress, Traveling, And Diet Plans

During times of stress, staying on any diet plan can be very difficult, especially someone who has to stay on a tight schedule such as a bariatric patient.  This week has been difficult for me.

First, I have to say that the people here do not eat.  Well, they do, but not frequently enough.  My mom will eat breakfast, maybe.  I made her eggs on Sunday around 830am.  Then at noon, she didn’t understand why I needed a snack.  My schedule is pretty tight.  I am supposed to have breakfast, protein snack, lunch protein snack, dinner.  I feel like I eat all of the time, and I guess I kind of do.  My body is now trained on this schedule.

At noon when I hadn’t eaten yet, I made my way into the kitchen and started rummaging for appropriate protein snacks, of which my mother has none.  Yes, I know.  I should have been better prepared.  I did try to think ahead and bring my own protein snacks, but I left it on the kitchen counter back in Arlington.  Good thinking, right.

My mom can have breakfast and then not eat again until dinner.  I’m not supposed to do that.  I do not eat a lot for each meal, so I have to eat frequently, plus take vitamins.  I know if I skip meals, forget my vitamins, or wait too long between meals, I feel it.  Not hunger pains so much as the other signs of not eating, irritability, dizziness, etc.  I had to explain this to my family and let them know that while they do not have to eat frequently, I do.

I feel a lot of pressure about this, I have to admit.  Most of it is stress that I am creating myself.  I am worried that every time I eat, they will think I am going back to my old ways and I so want them to see me as doing well.  I’m not saying that I do not occasionally struggle with food, addiction, beating myself up for falling off the wagon sometimes.  I just am doing a lot better and I would like for my family to know that.

Of course traveling, dealing with a death in the family, nursing my mom through surgery, looking through old paperwork to make sure she has what she needs to arrange the funeral, get her survivor benefits from social security, make sure she has everything she needs as far as her insurance paperwork, etc adds to the stress levels.

This has definitely been a very trying week, but it is almost over and I will be back home and back on schedule soon.  Granted, I know I will have to come up here several more times to help my mom out, but things will be much easier, I hope.

My New Obsession

Ever since the shopping spree with my sister, I have become obsessed with shopping.  I spent a lot of my weekend surfing the internet looking at new clothes.  I have decided that I want to wear dresses this summer.  I found very few suitable dresses as I will not be going sleeveless any time soon.  I only found one suitable dress while I was shopping with my sister.  Shopping online, however, I have many more options!  Oh God don’t even get me started on shoes!

I found this awesome dress at Dress Barn.  I have nowhere to wear it, but I’m not sure I should let that stop me.  I remember a commercial a while back for one of the outlet malls near here.  Their tag-line was “Buy the half-priced cocktail dress.  The party will come.”  Corny, but why not?  OK, I know that’s not really a cocktail dress either, but I think it’s a bit much for work.

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This one is OK.  I can wear it to work at least.

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The Avenue also has many dresses on sale right now.  I checked out the Land Bryant website, but really, I hate their cloths.  They are also horribly overpriced.  Who can afford $98 for a skirt, especially one that will not fit me in a few months?  Not this girl!

I have to admit, I’m hesitant to buy any more plus-sized clothes.  I can wear anything from a 14-18 now.  I’d say another 10 pounds and I will solidly be in the 14/16 range.  Another 20-25 pounds and I may be out of plus sizes altogether.  Then I will definitely need to go shopping again! 

I have to admit, I never thought I would see the end to plus sized clothes.  I’m kind of excited and a bit nervous to be back shopping in the regular women’s clothing stores.  That will be a glorious day, for sure!  No more Manatee Gray for me!  (F#@k Target.  Seriously!)

The Big Turkey Day

Thanksgiving is usually a day that I love to spend cooking.  Even if I am going to someone else’s house for dinner, I make a dish to bring with me.  This year, I am not cooking at all.

I am going with my brother and his family to his wife’s parent’s house.  They often invite me over for holiday meals.  They are so nice to include me to make sure that I have somewhere to go on holidays.

I am really happy to spend the day with my niece and her little cousins as well.  They make the holidays so much more fun.  I even get to meet the newest cousin.  I think he’s over a year old and I have not met him yet.  The last time I saw his mother, (my sister-in-laws brother’s wife), she was pregnant with him.  I cannot wait.

I will be taking my baby bullet blender with me so that I can puree some turkey.  I also plan on having some sweet potatoes and some green beans if they’re not baked in a casserole.

I was so happy today.  I pulled out a dress pants suit that I have not worn in forever.  When I bought it, it was kind of snug.  I had to wear spanx under then to get them buttoned and they were still very snug.  I’ve only worn the outfit twice.  I put it on today and the pants fit me perfectly with a little room even sans spanx.  The jacket also fits me perfectly.  The blouse is a little snug, but only because I am still wearing a support garment under my clothes.  The garment is kind of bulky so it is hard to judge just how my shirts fit unless I put them on without it.

I have really been struggling with my protein shakes.  I do not like the soy shakes at all.  I have tried using brewers yeast, which works well in chicken broth, but I still do not like it.  I’ve made the decision to try the protein shakes with the milk protein.  Trader Joe’s has a great chocolate shake.  The vanilla one was too sweet for me.  I had some dumping after drinking it.  I also bought a chicken soup protein drink made by Unjury.  I keep plenty of Zyrtec and Benedryl handy just in case of a reaction.  I do still some of the soy drinks and Brewers Yeast during the week, but I’m mixing in the Trader Joe’s and Unjury shakes as well.

I am really concerned about not getting enough protein.  I do not want to lose my hair.  Yes, I want to be healthy and all that, blah, blah, blah…but I am kind of vain about my hair.  I was born on a good hair day.  My hair texture is fine, but it is thick.  It doesn’t look thick until you try brush it.  Hair dressers love to work with my hair.  I am always getting a free style when I go get my hair done.  As they are working on it, or drying it, they often say, “I want to try something different, do you mind?”  Sometimes I go get my hair trimmed just to get it styled.  I’ll take a picture the next time I go to the beautician and show you how great my hair looks after I go.  Can’t wear a bikini, have great hair.  It’s the one good thing I have.  I really do not want to lose it.

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving.  I know I will, even though I cannot pig out this year.  I still have a lot to be thankful for.  I have great family and friends.  The best ever!  I have received so much love and support this past year I know that I am blessed and lucky to have them in my life.  I am also thankful for all of the support and well wishes I have received from the readers of my blog!  It feels so good to have strangers reach out to you and be supportive of what I am doing.  Thanks everyone and enjoy the big feast today!