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When I Get Discouraged…

It is easy to get discouraged when the scale does not move or does not move as quickly as it did in the beginning.  I have amped up my exercise recently, and I am trying to re-evaluate what I am eating to make sure that I am staying on plan and getting the right kind of nutrients.  I’m thinking of cutting back on the cappuccinos and converting back to regular coffee instead.  Fewer calories in regular coffee, although I will miss the foam.

Sometimes all I see is how far I have to go and not how far I have come.  To test the waters and attempt to cheer myself up, I tried on an item of clothing the other day that I have not worn since high school.  Yes, I still own one or two things from high school.

Let me preface this by saying that when in high school, I weighed between 120-135-ish range, depending upon the year.  I still have my high school band jacket and a t-shirt from my first school play.  I was in the orchestra my Sophomore through Senior years of high school.  My skinniest, at 125, was my Sophomore year when the school did West Side Story.

So, I put on my high school band jacket just for shits and giggles.  I can put it on and almost get it closed.  I cannot yet, button it, but a year ago, I couldn’t even an arm through a sleeve.  (Pay no attention to my messy hair and room, please.)

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It’s strange, because in high school I thought I was fat.  Everyone around me, almost everyone at least, confirmed this.  I was always being encouraged to diet.  I was always told how pretty I would be if I would just lose some weight.

Right before my surgery, my sister Sandy tried to put the jacket on.  She’s 5’4″ and weighs maybe 145 pounds.  She was always the skinny one.  She put this jacket on.  The sleeves were too short, and she could not even get it close to buttoned.

She turned around and looked at me and said, “Oh yeah, you were soooo fat in high school! Yeah right!”

If only I had known then what it was to be really fat…makes me sick to think about it.

So, when I’m feeling like I am making no progress, I put this jacket on.  I cannot wait until I can get it buttoned.  When that happens I will post a follow-up pic.  Maybe I will even put on my West Side Story t-shirt with it.  (I cannot believe I still have that!)

Happy Sunday, everyone and enjoy the start of football season!  I cannot wait until the weather cools off enough so that I can start wearing scarves and jackets.

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Slow But Steady

Well, it appears my scale did not fake me out this am.  I am down one more pound.  I did got on and off the scale several times, as I did the other day.  Then I went to get my camera, got back on the scale, and the one pound loss held.

I have to admit, I have become kind of obsessed again with what the scale says.  I know that I shouldn’t and that “numbers do not really matter,” but I cannot seem to help myself sometimes.

Fortunately, I’m not weighing myself every single day, just 2-3 times a week, but seriously, I need to back off the scale a little bit.

Anyway, here is the pic of today’s weight:

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This is also kind of a momentous number.  I have crossed a new threshold.  I have less than 50 pounds to lose before I reach my goal weight, 49 pounds to go!  I can hardly believe that.

I was so good last night.  I went to my weekly writer’s group and a couple of us went out afterwards.  Now, I did have a small supper before I went to the writer’s group, but I still could have eaten up to 262 more calories.

I wasn’t hungry, I wanted chicken wings.  And I did recognize the difference and therefore did not order them. Wings are one of my favorite food groups.  OMG, it’s bad.  Now, had I ordered them, I probably could only have eaten one or two wings, maximum.  I then would have 8 wings to bring to lunch today.  Still, more wings than I can eat in one sitting, but I love wings, so it’s not a problem.  They would have gotten eaten eventually.

I did not order the wings.  I drank my water and saved my calories.  I did allow myself a teeny treat before going to bed.  I had one small square of really dark chocolate and 1/2 teaspoon of peanut butter.  Something sweet and tasty, very low in sugar (2 grams) and a smidge of protein.

Speaking of peanut butter, wow, I really love this stuff.  I haven’t had peanut butter for years in part because I had developed an allergy to peanuts.  Since the surgery and massive weight loss, my allergies have abated quite a bit.  I decided to give peanut butter a try again.  I went to Trader Joe’s and bought the all natural peanut butter that you have to stir.  (I’ve always loved that the all natural more than the processed stuff.)  I have had no problems eating this at all.  So, I have been having peanut butter and apples for breakfast.  My niece went apple-picking last weekend, and I have a whole bag of fresh-picked honey crisp apples.  They are so delicious and go very well with freshly ground peanut butter.

One thing I’ve noticed about peanut butter that I haven’t noticed with other forms of protein, it really keeps me feeling very full.  Probably because most of the 190 calories in 2 tablespoons of pb is fat, and not the good kind either.  I don’t care.  I still love it.  And I still lost one pound!

Another One Bites The Dust

Yesterday, I said that I would weigh myself this weekend and post a picture of my weight on the scale.  Well, I did that this morning.  So, I’m going to post that picture here.  As you can see, I am down another pound from yesterday’s numbers.

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I now only have 50 pounds to go until I reach my goal weight.  This is absolutely amazing to me.

When I started this journey, I weighed 298 pounds.  To get to 125, I had to lose 173.  I have lost 123 pounds or 71% of the weight I need to lose to reach 125.  I am almost there.  O.M.G.

Today I have the whole day to myself.  My brother is in Pittsburgh visiting my mom, who got her cast off her arm this week.  His wife and daughter are with him, so no adventures in DC this weekend.  My sister is off boating with her husband.  I have plans with friends tomorrow, but I am being left to my own devices today!

I have some work I have to do.  I need to get to the gym.  I also plan on getting some writing done today.  And grocery shopping absolutely has to happen.

I will keep posting pictures of the scale as I continue to lose weight.  Hopefully, I can get close to my goal weight eventually!

Have a great Saturday!

 

To Reveal Or Not To Reveal…That Is The Question

Yesterday, apparently Mika Brzezinski from MSNBC’s Morning Joe tweeted her weight and this made news.  Not only did she tweet her weight, she took a picture of the scale while she was standing on it and tweeted that picture.  I’ve never done that, but you know what…I will do it some time this weekend!  Furthermore, I promise to always take a picture of what the scale says when I post my weight on my blog.

mikaI’m not sure this is actually news but, considering I that my blog is all about weight loss, I wanted to take a minute to talk about it.

As someone who put her weight on her blog from day one, I have to say, Bravo Mika!

Conversely,  this was discussed on theToday Show, and the female host there would not reveal her weight.  At first I was like, “Oh come on, it’s no big deal!”  But you know what?  That’s her choice.  And she made some great points about what the focus on the scale says to young girls.  I applaud her decision as well.

http://www.today.com/video/today/52763659#52763659

This is not an easy decision.  Once I decided to blog about my weight loss journey and my gastric by-pass surgery, I decided that the best and most honest way to do that was to openly tell people my weight.  I had never done that before.   Weight and emotions are so tightly wound together, it can be a real struggle to openly discuss.  It was very difficult for me to put my weight up on the internet for the whole world to see when I weighed close to 300 pounds.  It was embarrassing.  It was also really admitting to the world and myself that yes, I am fat…really, really fat.  Even though I knew I was that I was fat, as long as I did not reveal my weight openly, I could continue to pretend it was not the problem that it was.

Let’s face it.  When you weigh close to 300 pounds, there is no way to really hide it, even from yourself.  So for me, to put it out there and to be really, truly honest about how much I weighed, was liberating.  I was finally able to take steps to fix the problem, even if that step was extreme.

Today, I have no problem telling people how much I weigh.  It’s still on my blog.  I weighed myself this am, in fact.  I tell people all of the time.  I weigh 176 pounds.  I am proud of that.  I’m delighted to tell people that.  I tell perfect strangers.  Openly.  Willingly.  “Hi! Guess what?  I weigh 176 pounds!”

You know what else I tell people?  I used to weigh 298 pounds!  I have lost 122 *&$##ing pounds!  I so totally rock!

(I love to see the look on their faces when I tell them that!)

Yeah, I’d like to lose another 51 pounds.  My goal is 125.  I would love to get there.  But you know what?  If I don’t I’m OK with that.  What I’m not OK with now is pretending any longer.

So, thank you Mika for keeping it real and being truly open about what you have been through and where you are now.  I hope to always be as candid as you!

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Another Day Another Goal Achieved

I had a pretty busy and stressful weekend.  I ventured back to Pittsburgh to check in on mom.  Her arm is still in a cast and since she is now living alone, she needs help with pretty much everything until cast is removed and she can use her arm again.

So, I drove up there and did her laundry, cleaned her house, changed the linens, grocery shopped, etc.  I also took her out for a couple of hours both Saturday and Sunday just to get her out of the house for a while.  We had fun.

Needless to say, no exercise was accomplished either Saturday or Sunday.  A little bit of walking happened, as well as 27,000 trips up and down the stairs of her three story house while carrying loads of laundry, but no “exercise” per se.

That said, I had a follow-up appointment with the surgeon this am.  I was a bit worried about what the scale would say since I had not been to the gym since Thursday.  I weighed myself when I got up this am.  I know it is less than a week since the last time I weighed myself, but I figured the doctor was going to anyway, so I might as well.

I dropped another two pounds since Wednesday.  I now weigh 178.  Yay!!

The doctor’s scale matched my scale.  When does that ever happen?  So here are the number to date:

Original Weight: 298

Today’s Weight: 178

Total Lost:  120

Pounds left to lose until goal weight of 125 reached: 53

I have to admit, I’m having crazy reactions to this news.  Part of me is like, “Woo hoo! I’ve lost 120 pounds and I only have 53 to go! Yay me!”

The other part of my crazy brain is all “Holy Crap!  WTF???  What do you mean I still have 53 pounds to go?  Will this never end?”

I know.  I said it was crazy.

I guess I’m just anxious to be done with the losing weight part of this journey.  I am happy I have lost as much as I have.  And I feel so much better.  It does sometimes feel as if I will never get there.  I will be OK, though.  I’ll just stay focused, keep track of what I’m eating, take my vitamins and protein, and keep going to the gym.  Then I can start complaining about what comes next.

Have a great Monday and enjoy this rainbow I saw on the way home yesterday.

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